He know he is a monster, the scars on his body proves it to him every time he sees them. Jasper fears his past will come back and he knows he must protect his family and his love Ali from it. So little by little he says something from his past but he is afraid people he knew long ago will resurface.
History
Jasper Hale (born Jasper Whitlock in 1844, in Houston, Texas) is one of the few surviving vampires of the Southern vampire wars, who later joined the Olympic Coven.
Jasper Whitlock was the youngest major in the Confederate Army in Texas (having joined the army before he turned 17) until he was turned into a vampire by Maria and two other female vampires, Lucy and Nettie, who had recently lost their respective territories. Maria used him and other newborns to reclaim her place and later claim dominance over others. Nettie and Lucy were later destroyed by Jasper when they tried to rebel against Maria. Jasper and Maria seemingly shared a short romantic relationship but she never got over her first mate. When he became a vampire, he gained the ability to feel and manipulate people's emotions which was very useful in controlling the younger newborns. Jasper commanded Maria's newborn army that participated in the Southern vampire wars. Since Maria wouldn't keep vampires that proved useless after their first year, Jasper was responsible to dispose of them, which he did feel remorse for. While in the army, he befriended a newborn named Peter, whom he persuaded Maria to keep.
When Peter ran off with Charlotte, a newborn that they were supposed to kill, Jasper let them go. After a few years living as nomads in the Northern U.S, Peter and Charlotte came back and told Jasper about the way vampires could coexist in the North, and he left with them. A few years later he left their company, as he was still unhappy, since he could feel everything his human victims were feeling while he killed them. He tried to kill less often, but the thirst always grew overwhelming. He was also reeling from his years with Maria, which had almost turned him into a savage.
Later in 1948, he ran into a diner in Philadelphia and met Alice Cullen. At first, he was puzzled by her happy behavior and treated him as if they were close friends, but nevertheless, her joyful emotions impacted him greatly. As it turned out, she had been waiting for him. When she held out her hand, he took it, and felt an unfamiliar emotion for the first time: hope.
Ali my love
Ali and i have been through a lot of things, and i love her very much. I am not perfect but i am thankful for the day i met her, sweet and beautiful my Ali. She is my light in a dark room, to me she is the world. Ali i am glad to be your lover my sweet love.
He know he is a monster, the scars on his body proves it to him every time he sees them. Jasper fears his past will come back and he knows he must protect his family and his love Ali from it. So little by little he says something from his past but he is afraid people he knew long ago will resurface. 
Jasper Hale (born Jasper Whitlock in 1844, in Houston, Texas) is one of the few surviving vampires of the Southern vampire wars, who later joined the Olympic Coven.
Jasper Whitlock was the youngest major in the Confederate Army in Texas (having joined the army before he turned 17) until he was turned into a vampire by Maria and two other female vampires, Lucy and Nettie, who had recently lost their respective territories. Maria used him and other newborns to reclaim her place and later claim dominance over others. Nettie and Lucy were later destroyed by Jasper when they tried to rebel against Maria. Jasper and Maria seemingly shared a short romantic relationship but she never got over her first mate. When he became a vampire, he gained the ability to feel and manipulate people's emotions which was very useful in controlling the younger newborns. Jasper commanded Maria's newborn army that participated in the Southern vampire wars. Since Maria wouldn't keep vampires that proved useless after their first year, Jasper was responsible to dispose of them, which he did feel remorse for. While in the army, he befriended a newborn named Peter, whom he persuaded Maria to keep.
When Peter ran off with Charlotte, a newborn that they were supposed to kill, Jasper let them go. After a few years living as nomads in the Northern U.S, Peter and Charlotte came back and told Jasper about the way vampires could coexist in the North, and he left with them. A few years later he left their company, as he was still unhappy, since he could feel everything his human victims were feeling while he killed them. He tried to kill less often, but the thirst always grew overwhelming. He was also reeling from his years with Maria, which had almost turned him into a savage.
Later in 1948, he ran into a diner in Philadelphia and met Alice Cullen. At first, he was puzzled by her happy behavior and treated him as if they were close friends, but nevertheless, her joyful emotions impacted him greatly. As it turned out, she had been waiting for him. When she held out her hand, he took it, and felt an unfamiliar emotion for the first time: hope.
Ali and i have been through a lot of things, and i love her very much. I am not perfect but i am thankful for the day i met her, sweet and beautiful my Ali. She is my light in a dark room, to me she is the world. Ali i am glad to be your lover my sweet love.